Monday, July 31, 2017

The Charade




Damaged souls,
Pretending
To know.

Only love for those
Reflecting an image
Back broken.

I have my doubts
We will ever be whole
With God or without.

Still injured
Inflicting pain:
Better--
Saved.

Another charade,
A shroud
  Our Truth.
This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man!”
Hamlet Act 1, scene 3, 78–81




"You Haven't Done Nothing,"  Stevie Wonder







Sunday, July 30, 2017

Miracles...


When my mom was still alive, I continued scheduling all annual checkups in San Antonio to visit family and friends. I'd make my appointments on Friday's and stay for the weekend. Besides, I really loved my GYN. She and I were roughly the same age. She was brilliant but easy-going--like a friend more than a doctor.

During this time, one of George's buddies from high school to adulthood was diagnosed with the most deadly form of brain cancer in his early 40's. I remember mentioning the diagnosis to my GYN, acquainted with hope but also a practitioner of science. The good doctor and even better friend gently told me of a very bleak prognosis.

There wasn't going to be any spontaneous healing from Heaven. Regardless of the heartfelt circle of prayers, this particular type of CANCER would eventually prevail. "One-hundred-million miracles" don't always happen every day after all.

Then again thanks to medical advances, there were some plateaus. Our friend continued to enjoy life until he was gone. Fading into the distance as we said our goodbyes, he was off on another journey.

Perhaps there are miracles after all? 

Take that cancer!


"The Water Is Wide," 
Lilith Fair



Friday, July 28, 2017

"The Little Alsace of Texas"




"Castroville is a small town with a rich cultural heritage nestled in the Medina River Valley just 20 miles west of San Antonio. Known as “The Little Alsace of Texas” Castroville was founded in 1844 by Henri Castro, for whom the town is named. The first European emigrant settlers in this area were mostly Catholic farmers from Alsace, a region of France, brought over to fulfill Castro’s contract to colonize vacant Texas Land. Calling themselves Alsatians, they were mostly of German decent, speaking a dialect of German....


Mostly a farming community in the early days, the city of over 3,000 people now boasts agriculture, civic, commercial and industrial advancements. Castroville still has strong cultural ties to Alsace as many of its citizens are descendents of the original settlers who journeyed here from Alsace in 1844. It’s the home to many who can trace their ancestry back to their sister city, Eguisheim, Alsace,France...,"

Thursday, July 27, 2017

"The Other One," Korim



"The Other One,"
Korim,
Write about Now



Sandra Cisneros,  The House on Mango Street

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

"The Poetics of Disobedience," Alice Notley




"...It's possible that my biggest act of disobedience has consistently, since I was an adolescent, been against the idea that all truth comes from books, really other people's books. I hate the fact that whatever I say or write, someone reading or listening will try to find something out of their reading I "sound like." 'You sound just like...,' 'you remind me of...,' 'have you read...?' 

I read all the time and I often believe what I read while I'm reading it, especially if it's some trashy story; intense involvement in theories as well as stories seems difficult without temporary belief, but then it burns out. I've been trying to train myself for thirty or forty years not to believe anything anyone tells me...."

"...It's necessary to maintain a state of disobedience against...everything. One must remain somehow, though how, open to any subject or form in principle, open to the possibility of liking, open to the possibility of using. I try to maintain no continuous restrictions in my poetics except with regard to particular works, since writing at all means making some sort of choices. But NO DOCTRINES. Rather I tend to maintain a sense that a particular form or set of rules at a certain point might serve me for a while.


Like many writers I feel ambivalent about words, I know they don't work, I know they aren't it. I don't in the least feel that everything is language. I have a sense that there has been language from the beginning, that it isn't fundamentally an invention. These are contradictory positions but positions are just words. 

I don't believe that the best poems are just words, I think they're the same as reality; I tend to think reality is poetry, and that it isn't words. But words are one way to get at reality/poetry, what we're in all the time. I think words are among us and everywhere else, mingling, fusing with, backing off from us and everything else...,""The Poetics of Disobedience, " Alice Notley, Poetry Foundation Essay on Poetic Theory
                                  

                              

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

"Novel," Arthur Rimbaud

I.
No one's serious at seventeen.
--On beautiful nights when beer and lemonade
And loud, blinding cafés are the last thing you need
--You stroll beneath green lindens on the promenade.

Lindens smell fine on fine June nights!
Sometimes the air is so sweet that you close your eyes;
The wind brings sounds--the town is near--
And carries scents of vineyards and beer. . .

II.

--Over there, framed by a branch
You can see a little patch of dark blue
Stung by a sinister star that fades
With faint quiverings, so small and white. . .

June nights! Seventeen!--Drink it in.
Sap is champagne, it goes to your head. . .
The mind wanders, you feel a kiss
On your lips, quivering like a living thing. . .

III.

The wild heart Crusoes through a thousand novels
--And when a young girl walks alluringly
Through a streetlamp's pale light, beneath the ominous shadow
Of her father's starched collar. . .

Because as she passes by, boot heels tapping,
She turns on a dime, eyes wide,
Finding you too sweet to resist. . .
--And cavatinas die on your lips.

IV.

You're in love. Off the market till August.
You're in love.--Your sonnets make Her laugh.
Your friends are gone, you're bad news.
--Then, one night, your beloved, writes. . .!

That night. . .you return to the blinding cafés;
You order beer or lemonade. . .
--No one's serious at seventeen
When lindens line the promenade.


"Novel," Arthur Rimbaud--
Samara Huggins, 
2017 National Champion 

Monday, July 24, 2017

"Blue," Carl Phillips


As through marble or the lining of   
certain fish split open and scooped   
clean, this is the blue vein 
that rides, where the flesh is even   
whiter than the rest of her, the splayed   
thighs mother forgets, busy struggling   
for command over bones: her own,   
those of the chaise longue, all 
equally uncooperative, and there’s   
the wind, too. This is her hair, gone   
from white to blue in the air. 

This is the black, shot with blue, of my dark   
daddy’s knuckles, that do not change, ever.   
Which is to say they are no more pale   
in anger than at rest, or when, as 
I imagine them now, they follow 
the same two fingers he has always used   
to make the rim of every empty blue 
glass in the house sing. 
Always, the same 
blue-to-black sorrow 
no black surface can entirely hide. 

Under the night, somewhere 
between the white that is nothing so much as   
blue, and the black that is, finally; nothing,   
I am the man neither of you remembers.   
Shielding, in the half-dark, 
the blue eyes I sometimes forget 
I don’t have. Pulling my own stoop- 
shouldered kind of blues across paper.   
Apparently misinformed about the rumored   
stuff of dreams: everywhere I inquired,   
I was told look for blue.

"Black and Blue"
Ain't Misbehavin'

Sunday, July 23, 2017

"Among School Children," William Butler Yeats

I walk through the long schoolroom questioning;
A kind old nun in a white hood replies;
The children learn to cipher and to sing,
To study reading-books and history,
To cut and sew, be neat in everything
In the best modern way—the children's eyes
In momentary wonder stare upon
A sixty-year-old smiling public man.

II.
I dream of a Ledaean body, bent
Above a sinking fire, a tale that she
Told of a harsh reproof, or trivial event
That changed some childish day to tragedy—
Told, and it seemed that our two natures blent
Into a sphere from youthful sympathy,
Or else, to alter Plato's parable,
Into the yolk and white of the one shell.

III.
And thinking of that fit of grief or rage
I look upon one child or t'other there
And wonder if she stood so at that age—
For even daughters of the swan can share
Something of every paddler's heritage—
And had that colour upon cheek or hair,
And thereupon my heart is driven wild:
She stands before me as a living child.

IV.
Her present image floats into the mind—
Did Quattrocento finger fashion it
Hollow of cheek as though it drank the wind
And took a mess of shadows for its meat?
And I though never of Ledaean kind
Had pretty plumage once—enough of that,
Better to smile on all that smile, and show
There is a comfortable kind of old scarecrow.

V.
What youthful mother, a shape upon her lap
Honey of generation had betrayed,
And that must sleep, shriek, struggle to escape
As recollection or the drug decide,
Would think her son, did she but see that shape
With sixty or more winters on its head,
A compensation for the pang of his birth,
Or the uncertainty of his setting forth?

VI.
Plato thought nature but a spume that plays
Upon a ghostly paradigm of things;
Solider Aristotle played the taws
Upon the bottom of a king of kings;
World-famous golden-thighed Pythagoras
Fingered upon a fiddle-stick or strings
What a star sang and careless Muses heard:
Old clothes upon old sticks to scare a bird.

VII.
Both nuns and mothers worship images,
But those the candles light are not as those
That animate a mother's reveries,
But keep a marble or a bronze repose.
And yet they too break hearts—O Presences
That passion, piety or affection knows,
And that all heavenly glory symbolise—
O self-born mockers of man's enterprise;

VIII.
Labour is blossoming or dancing where
The body is not bruised to pleasure soul,
Nor beauty born out of its own despair,
Nor blear-eyed wisdom out of midnight oil.
O chestnut tree, great rooted blossomer,
Are you the leaf, the blossom or the bole?
O body swayed to music, O brightening glance,
How can we know the dancer from the dance?

William Bulter Yeats                

** Conclusion:  "While in the presence of youth, Yeats realizes the fleeting nature of life, accepting human frailty and the inevitability of aging. After wearing the false mask of acceptance for so long, Yeats finally allows himself to confront mortality. He realizes that no matter who the man, and irrespective of his deeds, death is an inevitable part of life. But, while looking back in the past, one should not view life in extreme parts. Instead of looking at actions as examples of failure or victory, one should see life in moderation, observing it in its entirety,"  "Among School Children," Poetic Analysis.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

"Nothing But Good," Sarah White, Wars Don't Happen Anymore

I will not speak ill of Jack Flick.
I will rarely look
at the scar he made on my cheek
one summer at the lake.

I won't speak ill of Jack whose freckles
and gangly legs are gone.
So is the drained face I saw when he saw
what he'd done with a sharp rock
nonchalantly skipped.

I will speak well, for it was somewhat
sweet to lie on the dock while Jack
and his friends bent down
and wiped my face with a sandy towel.
I will speak well of them,
for most are gone
and the wound proved small.

I will speak well, for the rock
missed my eye. I can hardly find
the scar. Jack went into the air
corps, fought in one of the wars,
retired, and lived less than a year
before his tender heart gave out.

I will speak well of Jack.


 "Hunger Strike,"
Chester Bennington and Chris Cornell
May you have found the
Rest and Peace 
You seek...

Friday, July 21, 2017

Le Vieux Carré





Stevie Wonder,
Jazzfest 2017

Patti LaBelle,
Jazzfest 2017

Johnny Lang,
Jazzfest 2017

Marcia Ball,
Jazzfest 2017

Buddy Guy,
Jazzfest 2017

Dancing Cop-
Gospel Tent,
Jazzfest 2017

Cuban Conga,
Jazzfest 2017

Harry Connick, Jr., 
Jazzfest 2017

Sussex Kings,
Jazzfest 2017

Nayo Jones, 
Jazzfest 2017

Rhiannon  Giddens,
Jazzfest 2017

Beau Soleil 
with Michale Ducet,
Jazzfest 2017



Thursday, July 20, 2017

"The Road Not Taken,"Robert Frost

Window Trail,
Big Bend National Park,
Circa 1990

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Chisos Mountains,
Big Bend National Park,
Circa 1990

Sunday, July 16, 2017

A Jehovah's Witness and a Unitarian Universalist meet at a bar...


Well, not exactly...

Most all of us have had the experience of “door to door” evangelicals, employing the same "scripted" sales strategy formerly used by Hoover and Encyclopedia Britannica. When the doorbell rings, I usually "get the Led out," turn-off the lights, and run for cover.

Add the bellowing of our big, beautiful pit bull mix, it’s no surprise those looking to redeem wayward souls decide to save it for another day, if ever. Just in case, an informative pamphlet complete with cool illustrations is usually strategically placed at our doorstep. 

Rather than feign absence or illness to avoid an uncomfortable conversation, this time I didn't Shut The Front...Door. Like angels disguised as humans walking this Earth, two of the sweetest Jehovah's Witnesses descended upon our entryway. They even had a few kind words for our barking pup. 

Equally undeterred by my cosmic ramblings, the ladies focused on similarities rather than differences. Still I declined their offer of yet another Watchtower publication although I’ve read others Left Behind in the past. How else would I know about the pics? 

At this point in life, I'm just not a good candidate for conversion. My core beliefs aren't going to change. I've always had questions and doubts. Fundamentally, I have never subscribed to any prescriptive religious dogma. 

I don't necessarily reject religion either. In our darkest moments, all of us seek understanding and hope related to yet at the same time separate from the religious culture and dynamic. We want guidance and solace, not judgment from fellow sinners no better than ourselves. 

Generally speaking, Unitarian Universalists are informed by religious writings as well as humanist and atheist philosophies in addition to Nature, art, literature, music, science, history--life in general. Considering the wealth of resources, Universalists would seem to have substantive answers to existential complexities and difficulties. Sadly, we just appear to be more confused. 

I don’t presume to know whether or not an atheist will be “saved,” for example. It’s not my call. It seems reasonable, however, that an atheist can’t be punished or rewarded by something in which he/she doesn’t believe. Enlightenment is not about what God has or hasn't done for us lately. Come to think of it, I don’t presume to know if believers will be saved either. 

In other words, one person’s Hell is another person’s Heaven. A Christian's ultimate Hell would be detachment from God. For an atheist rejecting belief in a higher power is liberating, if not Heavenly. In our quest for egotistical absolutism, existing in shades of grey appears to be beyond man's grasp. 


Appearances can be deceiving, after all. Goodness isn't necessarily related to the image we project for the entire world to see. Each one of us has an alternate reality, remaining hidden for the most part. 

Perhaps when our respective journeys come to an end, a truth eternal will be our salvation. In the meantime, “We do not see the world as it is. We see the world as we are.”




Friday, July 14, 2017

"How to Celebrate Bastille Day Like a True Parisian," Madeleine Luckel

Courtesy of Maison Kayser

Now that the Fourth of July has come and gone, there’s another patriotically minded red-white-and-blue holiday on the horizon. Confused? Why, we mean Bastille Day, of course. So if you, too, are a Francophile at heart, it’s high time to start making your own la Fête nationale plans. Below, we asked Eric Kayser of Maison Kayser for some advice. So what exactly did this entail? The history! The traditions! And last but certainly not least—the food. With three recipes fit to make a complete meal, it’s practically a fait accompli.

How do the French typically celebrate Bastille Day? 

Bastille Day on July 14 celebrates the storming of the Bastille, a political prison that represented royal authority. It was a turning point in the French Revolution that eventually led to the end of the monarchy. 

To celebrate, the day usually starts with one of the oldest and largest military parades in the world, on the famed Champs-Elysées Avenue in the presence of the French president and other dignitaries. People come out to watch the parade and usually stay out all day, picnicking and staying late for the fireworks that conclude the celebration.

What do you like most about Bastille Day? 

I love how people come together on that day—people go out on the street to watch the parade and the fireworks. They eat together, laugh together; there is a sense of camaraderie and shared history on the street. I also love fireworks; they never cease to amaze the child in me.

So what are some traditional things to make on Bastille Day? 

It’s usually a hot day so people tend to stay outside. The tradition is usually to have a picnic outdoors with friends or to entertain at home in one’s backyard. Some of my favorite things to make include good sandwiches with freshly baked baguettes and the finest ingredients. 

My personal favorite is a Parisien sandwich—a typical French sandwich made with Parisian cooked ham, a touch of good butter, a few cornichons, and a slice or two of Gruyère cheese. I love to accompany my sandwiches with a cold ratatouille, which is a fragrant stew of eggplant, tomatoes, zucchini, onions, and red peppers typical of the South of France. Last but not least, I always bring pastries that can be easily eaten without forks and knives, like an éclair.

Any secret tips when it comes to making these dishes? 

The Parisien sandwich and ratatouille are simple yet delicious recipes. The key is to choose the best ingredients you can find. Fresh bread that is made with premium unbleached, unbromated flours; organic ham; butter made with high-quality cream; and seasonal vegetables. 

The éclair recipe might feel a bit more intimidating, but the secret is really to follow the four main steps one by one and to pace yourself. Make sure you have your mise en place ready before starting: Lay out all of the ingredients already measured before you, as well as any piece of equipment you will need. You can also replace the blueberry confit with some good blueberry preserves. Last but not least, make sure to keep the éclairs cold before enjoying them!  Bastille Day Recipes

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

"Menial Labor jobs said to be 'beneath' some," Willis Webb





“Boy, don’t ever let me catch you backing up to get a paycheck.” — spoken by L. Ray Webb to his son, Willis, circa 1947.

Most Texans — certainly those who grew up in small towns or rural areas — will have a full understanding of that statement: “"You had better have worked hard enough to honorably face your employer and to accept a paycheck you’d earned.”

My parents were like just about every other set of parents of my age group. They expected us to prepare for a life of work. What kind depended entirely on us youngsters and our choices. We were encouraged to pursue education so that we hopefully wouldn’t have to go through life doing manual labor or any kind of menial job, but it was instilled in us that there was no dishonor in hard, physical work.

That philosophy comes to mind these days when one reads about people who are out of work, turning down jobs that are menial and/or involve manual labor. There probably are several reasons offered for the refusal to do menial jobs but only one comes to mind that seems acceptable: the labor would threaten one’s health or perhaps their life.

My upbringing encouraged me to attend college, something neither of my parents were able to do. They were teenagers during the Great Depression of the 1930s and each grew up as part of farm-ranch families where hard work was an everyday fact of life. Regularly, my folks would say, “Study and get a good education so you won’t have to work as hard as we have had to do.”

However, when you’re a kid, you don’t always find jobs that aren’t “physical.”

My three brothers and I almost always had a paper route and jobs in addition to that. When you deliver newspapers on a bicycle, in all kinds of weather, the job can be physically taxing. So, can stocking, sacking and carrying out groceries in a grocery store.

One year, a variety store job provided an adventure of a different kind. O.H. Forke’s store carried fireworks for July 4th, Labor Day, Christmas and New Year. However, a city ordinance banning fireworks forced him to set up a stand just outside the city limits and guess who got to man it? I spent most of what I made on fireworks for me and my brothers.

One of the hardest and most dangerous jobs, as a teen, was driving a small gasoline tanker truck that delivered gas and oil products to “filling stations” in Teague and surrounding towns.

On one occasion, I crossed the truck’s delivery hoses to underground tanks for regular and premium gases. The larger amount of regular gas went into the premium storage tank and the lesser premium delivery went into the big regular storage. In a short while, Teague’s Main Street was awash with gasoline. But, somehow, I kept the job for a year.

There was one other truck driving job. It lasted one day. I delivered a load of bricks from our town’s brick manufacturing plant to a town about 60 miles away. It was “Norman” brick, which are solid, about two inches wide, four inches deep and close to a foot long. Heavy.

It took several hours to unload those bricks...by hand. I had a set of tongs that clamped onto about nine bricks at a time and I had to stand beside the truck bed, reach onto the bed, lift with arm strength/leverage only. It took about six hours to unload that truck. 

I drove back home and left the truck at the owner’s home late that night. I spent a couple of days in bed and after several years of frequent pain, had back surgery, which I attributed to my one day as a brick truck driver.

I became even more convinced that Mom and Dad were right. I needed to get an education so I didn’t have to “work so hard,”  Willis Web, Rockdale Reporter News Editorial, 1/5/2012 .







Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Bargain by Faust


There’s always a deal
To be made
Never a price too high
In selling
Ourselves.

Indignant yet indifferent
Crying foul to the
Stench of reality.
As long as it’s not
Ours gone
Bad.

Damaged goods
Cannot always be returned
There is no
Expiration date
For Integrity
Lost.