The first day of the rest of my life...

Frank Zappa

Dearest George, 

This second year of "life without you" has been a challenge emotionally, coming to grips with a new reality as well as creating new hopes and dreams alone since those we built together have been altered if not completely destroyed.  And now after two years I’m going live my life because I know you wouldn’t want me or any of us stuck in a cycle of mourning.  

I’m making new friends--if not a lot.  But I’ve never needed a lot of friends.  However, these friends and I have so much in common—our bond has been easy to develop, not challenging to maintain due to differences in the way we see the world first and foremost.  I’m building a “tribe" of love and mutual respect.  Now I dare to be, embracing happiness with the knowledge I am not alone.  None of us are. 

I'm making concrete plans to celebrate "being" and "living."  I'm creating new traditions.  I'm seeking out peace and enlightenment.  I'm getting back on track with "business" I've put on hold, while giving-in to grief completely in order to heal.  So I’m very enthusiastic and even joyful to experience the present while looking forward to the future, learning from the past.     

I will always celebrate your life and milestones.  I will always have a profound love for you, and thank God every day for the gift of having you in my life. You changed me fundamentally as a person, teaching me how to be a more compassionate human being--to listen even when letting go.  And for you I will always be eternally grateful.

God is good--as you've have always tried to tell me, but now  I finally understand.  You and I still gaze at the stars together; we always will. 

Love always my angel,

Donna